And So i Came Across..: Of Every Little Things..

And So i Came Across..

little things in my life..

Friday, March 28, 2008

Of Every Little Things..

Just got a text from my dad asking me about my day. Told him i bloody skipped classes the whole day. He never said anything about that. All he did was to ask if i am okay.

Asked him on his opinion after my graduating from my dumbass Bachelor. He said he'll support my studies financially no matter where or when or how i wanna do it.

i could no longer hold back my tears and burst out in tears.

How much i've missed home. How much i love you dad, you might never know how much. How much i've missed you and home. How much in a dilemma i am now. To see that you've aged. To feel how much you care for me. To feel how much you love me though i seldom hear it from you. How much i've cried just thinking about you and mum, and the rest.

To you, ... ... ... ... ... It's really hard for me. i gave you just one day. One day.. To give in to me, to forgive my temper, to love me no matter what crap i may spit out from my mouth, but you just had to add in humour and ridicule in whatever you do. Just one day. Just one day of telling myself, just one day to convince myself, just one day of making myself believe that you're worth it.

To everyone, have i become one really weird person? Have i changed? Have i fucked my own life up? Have i done my best for myself? Have i been too selfish? Have i given all my love for people whom i should have given it to? Have i? There are thousands of questions in my mind. They seem to be spinning like a grinding machine and are moving way too fast for my brain to digest. If only i could spilt it apart, scrap out all the questions that are playing in my mind.

To myself, today is one day where i should start making myself happy. This isn't a promise as i can't assure that i can do it.

Cheers to me, and please pray that i can make it..

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scribbled by And So i Am @ 2:25 PM

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